What Will I Do?

What am I going to do with my life? A question we ask or hear all to often and yet one of the most valid questions there are. I see my life going in many different directions but I'm sure which one I want. Obviously the first direction I would like my life to go is to college but for most people college means figuring out what you want to do with the rest of your life after college. There are several careers I think would be exciting or fun or whatever but I don't know which would I would be best at or which one would work out the best. I know I'm only 16 but it's still something to think about because when is the right time to decide what you're doing with your life? I have no idea so I figure now is as good a time as any. So I have some options I think would be good (it should be noted that I haven't fully researched or found out if I'm any good at any of these, it's just things I think I would like):

-Interior Designer
- Play/ Movie Set Designer
- Writer and/or Illustrator
- Artist/ Cartoonist
- Movie Writer/ Director/ Producer
- Actress/ Youtube video maker (yes this is a job)
- Owner of thrift/ consignment store
- Graphic Designer
- Animator
- Musical Performer and/or music teacher
- Book Editor/ Publisher
- Charity Worker (not sure how this would make money)
- Movie Critic/ Professional Movie Watcher (probably not a thing)
- Youth Ministries person/ Work at Inspiration Point (or something similar)
- World Traveler (not sure about money on this either)

That's all I can think of at the moment. Yeah it's not exactly a small list which is why I am so conflicted. Obviously if I found out more specifically what each person does it might narrow down the list but it seems like there would be so many interesting things to do which is good I guess because the other option is there's nothing good to do with your life but still it causes confliction. Ok I don't think I'm any closer to an answer but I like writing out all my options to see what there is.

So Many Choices,
Jennifer

Ding! Going Crazy

Wow I suck at this. Oh well we'll just say it's cause I have an actual life. sooo I don't actually know what to write but I feel I should post something since I've haven't for a long time. oh I actually have something. that's right ok so in Florida we were on the 25th floor so that involved a long elevator ride whenever we went somewhere and there were always crazy people on the elevator so I wrote down the weird occurances.

- angry old man when wife tries to get off at wrong floor- "NO!!" (frightening)
- two cute guys- "I am so ready for a nice ass shower." "Dude no cursing on the elevator."
- angry little girls (looking at us)- "It's like really over the weight limit." (stupid kids got no respect)
- two random dudes- (about The Hunger Games)- "So you actually like that book?" "Bro I'm an academic."
- smart ass woman (my mom didn't know if we wanted up or down so she accidentally got in the wrong one)- "Yeah you have to look at the arrows." (no shit)
- creepy phone man- he was standing in the corner holding up a phone but he never talked on it and he didn't press any buttons (where was he going? and I saw him later wandering the streets)
- little kid (to really tall guy)- "Whoa you are so big. Why are you so big?" (it was the guy's floor so he just ran away)

So yeah people are freakin weird in Florida (and in elevators apparently). Like really there were way more weird people but I couldn't even keep track of it all.

A Title

Hey girl hey. I don't know what to say. ok that was an accidental rhyme. So yesterday I went to the golf zone place where you can practice teeing off or just hitting it. So I think I did dece. My parents were impressed but that doesn't really mean much cause of course they would say that. When I was there my arm started to hurt so I stopped and now today I got up and I feel like a old woman cause I have a sore arm/ shoulder and my back hurts so I was like oh ma back and so yeah I felt like a old lady. anywhoos if you keep track of my youtube obsessions you would know that a while ago I obsessed with CTFxC which is this daily vlog of this couple who are married (it was so cute by the way). So i got reobsessed (I feel that's not a word) cause I found out that he had to have brain surgery! but it's ok cause he had it and he's fine which is yay. Anyways I forgot how awesome and cute they are so now I am reobsessed and I have been watching them all day today (on account of the no school). just in case you were wondering even though you probably weren't.

tra la lum,
Me

Will the Magic Continue?

J.K. Rowling is writing a new book for adults. I like how she thinks Harry Potter isn't for adults because obviously everyone who is anyone and their freakin mother read the H Pizzles (sorry I was just watching a Jake and Amir and sometimes I just get possessed by Amir). But really I just don't know about this sheesh (sorry again) because I feel like the book is just gonna be like oh I can write something that's not Harry Potter so it'll probably not be fantasy or adventure but like some sappy romance novel or something. I might just think this because when I think of the phrase adult book I think about how all those middle aged women read every single Mary Higgins Clark they can get their hands on (my mother being one of those women). Obviously that's not the only kind of book for adults so maybe it'll be amazing because come on it is J.K. Rowling and her writing skills brought the magic to the yard (get it?). Ok I think I just changed my own opinion but who knows we'll just have to wait until it comes out. Oh so there was an article about it on msn which basically said nothing but anyways at one point it said this:
 Rowling will now share the same publisher with Stephenie Meyer, whose "Twilight" series at least partially filled the gap opened by the conclusion of the Potter stories.

my response was: Oh do not even pretend that twicrap in anyway fills any gap in anyone's life unless they put it in their head because anyone who reads those books (and likes them) obviously doesn't have much up there. and that is my opinion on that.

Rowling Returns,
Jamir

Darren Criss Is a Bro

Well hello there! I didn't see you there. That's probably because I haven't seen you for a while but I'm back now so there's  no need to worry. I'm not going to lie I kind of forgot about you for a while but don't cry because of course I've come back to my senses and plan to see you more often.

well now that we have that out of the way i would like to say: CHO CHANG! I AM SO IN LOVE WITH CHO CHANG. FROM BANGKOK TO DING DANG, I'LL SING MY LOVE ALOUD FOR CHO CHANG!

Why me? This may sound melodramatic but let's face it, my expertise lies in the world of melodrama. So as I was saying, why me? Why did she choose me to go on this trip? If she knew me at all she would know that there's no way I can do this. I've never even left the country never mind the continent. Malaysia is not somewhere you just go whenever you feel like it. I don't how I'll survive there a month without friends or a cellphone or basically anything. Sure she says it will be a good experience and I'll make friends there but really this is the worst idea I've ever heard. On second thought maybe I'm not being melodramatic. I mean come on who would be like oh that sounds fantastic I'll just leave my life behind for a month to volunteer in a foreign country I've barely even heard of. Three words: save me now.

I'm as happy as a squirrel when i'm with mr. quirrel. that should really be a shirt cause i actually would buy that on account of it's hilarious. there's a what's the devil shirt which i also really want.

Television is My Friend

Because I'm a super cool person I like to watch tv and since it's a long weekend I discovered some new shows. Since lists are funner I will list them:

-Awkward.- Awkward is hilarious and, you guessed it, awkward. It's kinda weird but it's one of those shows that once you start watching you don't want to stop. It's very teen dramaish which i hate in real life but i kind of like it in tv shows.

-Jane by Design- So sticking with the theme of teen drama I also started watching this show. It's about this girl who tries to get an internship at a fashion place cause her mom ran away, her dad died, and her brother can't get a job (i told you it's dramatic) so she wants to try to help make money (I don't know how she thinks an internship will earn money). So anyway she goes to the place but the woman thinks she's there for the assistant job so she gets that instead and is making a bunch of money. So since she has a different job she leads a double life or whatever and it's odd. I only watched the first episode but i think i like it.

-Phil of the Future- ok so I didn't discover this but I rediscovered it. I used to love this show and i found out that they have all the full episodes on youtube so I've been watching Phil of the Future like a coolio.

i guess that is all. you've just been philled in. ok not really.

treedledee,
JennJeanne

Finals

my giant rant if you choose to read it. sorry about the caps but i like to rant in all caps because well i like caps.

IS IT OVER YET CAUSE REALLY. I AM SO DONE WITH THIS. ALL THESE TEST AND FINALS AND CRAP THAT I DON’T GIVE A CRAP ABOUT BECAUSE WHO DOES. I DON’T WANT TO GO TO FRANCE, I DON’T WANT TO WRITE AN ESSAY,  I DON’T WANT TO KNOW ABOUT THE CIVIL WAR, I DON’T WANT TO KNOW HOW TO DO PRE-CALC, AND I DEFINITELY DON’T WANT TO KNOW ABOUT DISEASES AND HOW THEY ATTACK ME AND MAKE ME FEEL LIKE CRAP. I DON’T WANT TO KNOW ANY OF THESE THINGS AND I DON’T MY LIFE TO EVER INCLUDE ANY OF THESE THINGS SO WHY MUST MY LIFE DEPEND ON KNOWING THEM. OBVIOUSLY I KNOW MY LIFE DOESN’T REALLY DEPEND ON IT BUT IT SURE MAKES A DIFFERENCE. THESE ARE ALL BIG TESTS AND PROJECTS AND SO THEY GREATLY AFFECT MY GRADE WHICH GREATLY AFFECTS WHAT COLLEGES I CAN GET INTO WHICH GREATLY AFFECTS WHAT CAREERS I CAN CHOOSE WHICH GREATLY AFFECTS HOW MUCH I LIKE MY JOB AND HOW HAPPY I AM IN MY LIFE AND I WANT TO BE HAPPY AND SUCCESSFUL CAUSE WHO DOESN’T. SO THEREFORE THESE THINGS DETERMINE MY LIFE AND I DETEST THEM FOR IT. DETEST. EVEN IF I PROMISE NEVER TO USE ANY OF THESE THINGS THEY DON’T CARE. IF I BEG AND PLEAD ON MY KNEES THEY DON’T CARE. THEY DON’T CARE IF I GET AND F AND THEY DON’T CARE IF I END UP BEING A DIRTY HOBO ON THE STREET WHO DIES OF STARVATION OR SUICIDE FROM DEPRESSION. THEY DON’T CARE BECAUSE “THEY” ARE THE GOVERNMENT. I DON’T KNOW WHO IT IS BUT WHOEVER CAME UP WITH THE WHOLE GRADE SYSTEM AND COLLEGE SYSTEM AND WHO MADE IT SO A BAD TEST OR PAPER CAN RUIN THE REST OF YOUR LIFE. THEY MIGHT NOT ADMIT THAT OR EVEN NOTICE IT BUT IT’S TRUE. SO HEAR I AM RANTING AND RAGING ON A COMPUTER WHILE I’M SUPPOSED TO BE STUDYING FOR TESTS AND FINALS AND ALL THE CRAP I HAVE TO DO TOMORROW AND SO I’M STARTING TO FREAK OUT BECAUSE I’M NOT GETTING ANYTHING DONE. I HATE SCHOOL. I HATE IT. IF THIS WASN’T ALL IN CAPS I HATE SCHOOL WOULD BE. IF IT WASN’T FOR THE GRADES I WOULD LOVE IT. I GUESS THAT’S WHAT IT’S LIKE FOR THE PEOPLE WHO DON’T CARE. THEY CAN JUST HANG OUT WITH FRIENDS, BS THEIR CLASSES, AND NEVER WORRY ABOUT DOING HOMEWORK OR DOING WELL ON TESTS. LIFE WOULD BE A FREAKING BREEZE. UNTIL OF COURSE THEY REALIZE THAT THEY’RE GOING TO HAVE TO WORK AT A GAS STATION OR BEG ON THE STREETS BECAUSE THEY’RE LAZY ASS LOW LIFES. I REALLY SHOULD GET BACK TO STUDYING BECAUSE NO MATTER WHAT I SAY I DO CARE ABOUT HOW I DO AND I WOULD LIKE TO GET INTO COLLEGES AND HAVE JOBS AND A HOUSE OR AT LEAST THE CHOICE TO. IT SUCKS THAT I CARE AND IT SUCKS THAT IT HAS TO BE THIS WAY BUT THAT’S THE WAY LIFE GOES SOMETIMES. MAYBE ON THE WEEKEND I’LL FEEL A LITTLE LIGHTER CAUSE I KNOW IT WILL GET LIGHTER SOMETIME BECAUSE THAT’S ALSO THE WAY LIFE GOES, WHICH IS WHY I STAND TO LIVE THROUGH THE BAD PARTS BECAUSE THE GOOD PARTS ARE SO GOOD THAT YOU WONDER WHY YOU WERE EVER SO UPSET ABOUT THE BAD PARTS. BECAUSE REALLY, IF YOU WANT IT TO BE, LIFE CAN BE AN AMAZING ADVENTURE THAT YOU HAVE TO TAKE ALL THE WAY THROUGH BEFORE YOU CAN COME BACK HOME. IT’LL BE UNBELIEVEABLY GREAT TO BE BACK HOME BUT YOU’LL BE GLAD YOU TOOK THE TRIP.

yep that was me going crazy but sometimes you just gotta rant.

Jenn

Unbelievable

ok first of all holy crap. ok so i was looking at articles about racism for the english essay and i found one that was called "White America Has Lost Its Mind" which i thought sounded kinda funny even though i doubted it would be very credible. so i was looking at it and i happened to see the comment section beneath the article and it was in one word: ridiculous. this was the first comment and i think i could just turn this in as proof that there's still racism in amerca:

hell, bells, the wiggers and all you black folk outta just get on a boat & go back to africa, you know where you beat each other up and kill each other , & when one TRIBE "conquers " another you can make slaves out of them like you did hundreds of years ago ; ( still happens today, though no-one talks about that- don't want to make the likes of you out to be savages) I wouldn't worry too much about "you guys" taking over the country; you never did anything with africa . No, you shouldn't take too much for "granted ", so to speak. According to SCIENTISTS , the origins of MANKIND originates in AFRICA. Lets see if you with the "BRAINS' can follow this.............. IF you're so GRRRRRRREAT , why is africa so under-developed? Let me see, the " cracker" , that "honky " the white MF" , that "racist" has been "hold'n you down" !? Yeah, right , after all the thousands of years of existence, you still point and play the "BLAME GAME" ! Why, because it's your "WILD-CARD " to get your way and what you want. And you'll keep playing it as long as you can, as long as you can get away with it. It's the only way you can get ahead. You can't do it on your own; the bottom line is you need; you can't live without WHITEY... PERIOD !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! You've "SUCKERED " a lot of white folks into believing something other than the real TRUTH. Also , you like to play the "BIGGEST GAME " of all . You folks like to make WHITE FOLKS feel " guilty " . AFRICA , without the white man would be as un-civilized today as it was in the beginning of time. 99.9999999% don't have what it takes to be a developed , civilized nation in AFRICA if you're of the black race. you didn't develop anything, you wouldn't see that country in the shape it is in today if you had any capabilities. oh we'll give you some credit; but "dancing" , "knuckle-knocking, elbow -banging", " head-bang'n", "rapp'n" , "run'n" , "party'n", "jive'n " ( you get the idea) oh, and chasing dumb-ass "wigger" women; don't want to leave that out, doesn't get the job done. Bottom line is, you just don't QUALIFY, got it! IF this country was ever taken control of by the "likes of you" , we're in big trouble. Fortunately, that'll never happen. And if you can just squeeze out a macro ounce of brain-power in that coconut of a head of yours, you will figure out what and why that will never happen in the USA. THE SAYING GOES LIKE THIS ......." BE CAREFUL WHAT YOU WISH FOR, YOU MIGHT NOT LIKE THE "END RESULTS";.........GET IT ??????????? Be thankful the black ancestors of ages ago were taken out of their bondage & brought over here. Even the poorest poor in this country is still better off than most people in africa. FURTHERMORE africa is better off today because of what CIVILIZATION has brought to them and given ( YES --- GIVEN ) africa! YOU SHOULD ALWAYS BE SO EVER GRATEFUL. IF I'M A RACIST THEN SO BE IT..... I HAVE THE RIGHT TO BE WHATEVER I WANT TO BE, TO THINK WHAT I WANT TO THINK, AND TO SAY WHAT I WANT TO SAY !!!!! I DON'T COWER BEHIND ANY OF THAT "POLITICAL BS"! PEOPLE NEED TO BE THEMSELVES, WHETHER SOMEONE MIGHT OR MIGHT NOT BE OFFENDED. TOO MANY PEOPLE ARE ON THE "SIDELINES" ALLOWING ALL THIS LEFT-WING LIBERAL BS GET SHOVED DOWN THEIR THROAT. ENOUGH BULLSHIT PEOPLE. YOU'VE GOT A BRAIN; USE IT!!!!! CAN'T YOU ALL SEE HOW YOU'RE ALL BEING INDOCTRINATED WITH THIS BS. HITLER DID THE SAME TO THE GERMANS. THE LEFT WING AGENDA TRIES TO SLANT THAT THE WHITE MAN IS THE DEVIL. THE BOOKS IN THE SCHOOLS GOT EVERY ONE BELIEVING WE "STOLE" EVERYTHING FROM AFRICA. WHAT THEY DON'T TELL YOU IS THAT THE BLACKS IN AFRICA WERE ALREADY IN SLAVERY WHEN THE EUROPEAN TRADERS BY VIRTUE OF THE TRADEWINDS AND THE SAILS OF THEIR SHIPS CARRIED THEM PAST THE CONTINENT OF AFRICA. THE BLACK PEOPLE OF BONDAGE WERE TRADED ( NO OHTER RESOURCES TO TRADE TO THE "RICH" WHITE GUY BACK THEN ) TO THE WHITE EUROPEAN FOR TRINKETS, WHISKEY, TOBACCO, & OTHER "WORLDLY GOODS " IT'S NOT LIKE THE NEANDERTHAL AFRICAN HAD ANY THING ELSE TO OFFER. WHITES NEEDED MANPOWER, AND BECAUSE IT'S IN THE BLACK MAN'S NATURE TO FIGHT AMONGST EACH OTHER AND THE DEFEATED "TRIBE" WAS ENSLAVED , IT WAS THE ONLY "COMMODITY" AFICA HAD TO OFFER TO UPGRADE THEIR LIVES. SLAVES, PLENTY OF SLAVES . YOU SEE HOW THEY " FELL" INTO THE SITUATION THE WHITE MAN GETS BLAMED FOR. AS THE USA GREW AND BECAME MORE INDUSTRIALIZED, IT BECAME LOOKED UPON THAT SLAVERY WASN'T NEEDED. HOWEVER, AS WE ALL KNOW , THAT IDEA WASN'T ACCEPTED ALL THROUGHOUT THE LAND. THE SOUTH WASN'T AS INDUSTRIALIZED AS THE NORTH AND HENCEFORTH THE "IDEA" OF ENDING SLAVERY WASN'T FULLY ACCEPTED. THE INDUSTRIAL REVOLUTION HADN'T CAUGHT UP IN THE SOUTH, SO MANPOWER WAS STILL VERY IMPORTANT TO THEIR WAY OF EXISTENCE. SOME FARMERS & PLANTATION OWNERS DID TRY TO SET THEIR SLAVES FREE; BUT MOST REFUSED TO LEAVE THEIR PLANTATION HOMES. NOW THE ARGUMENT ( POLITICS , YES POLITICS, ) GOT INVOLVED AND "USED" THIS ISSUE OF SLAVERY AS A POLITICAL TOOL. YOU UNDERSTAND, AS TODAY THE ILLEGAL IMMIGRANT ( C'MON , YOU KNOW , MEXICAN, SOUTH AMERICAN, CENTRAL AMERICAN , ETC. ,ETC. ) IS CONTROVERSIAL TODAY. THE "SPIN" GOES ON AND ON, JUST AS THIS CLOWN IS SPINNING AND SOME OF THE COMMENTS THAT AGREE WITH THIS ASSHOLE ARE SPINNING. COMMON SENSE CAN TELL YOU THE TRUTH, AND IF YOU DO SOME RESEARCH THE FACTS WILL SURFACE. STOP BEING " PIMPED " PEOPLE. I AM SO SICK & TIRED OF ALL THIS CRAP THAT CONTINUOUSLY GETS KICKED AROUND; AND A LOT OF OTHER PEOPLE ARE FEELING THE SAME WAY . LOTS MORE PEOPLE! MORE PEOPLE SPEAKING UP AGAINST THIS SLANTED BS! THE COUNTRY HAS ACQUIRED A LARGE PROPORTION OF ITS DEBT SUBSIDIZING THE POOR AND MINORITY ( ESPECIALLY THE 13% BLACK POPULATION) OF THIS COUNTRY. SCHOOLS , HELL NO MATTER IF YOU GAVE A POT OF GOLD ( ON TOP OF STATE LOTTERIES THEY RECEIVE ) IT STILL WOULDN'T SUFFICE. ALL THESE PEOPLE WANT IS EVERYTHING; BUT WITHOUT HAVING TO DO ANYTHING TO GET IT. THEY WANT HANDOUTS, SIMPLE AS THAT. I COULD GO ON AND ON. TAKE ALL YOUR " TALENT" AND GO BUILD YOUR OWN COUNTRY ( AND TAKE ALL THOSE THAT SIDE WITH YOU ) AND MAYBE YOU CAN CREATE THE GREATEST "WONDER" OF THE CIVILIZED WORLD. PROBABLY THE BEST PLACE TO START IS WHERE YOU LEFT OFF ; REMEMBER , YOU ALREADY HAD SUCH A " GREAT THING " GOING......

i know this was ridiculously long so it's ok if you didn't read the whole thing but i did and it is just straight up crazy. it makes me embarassed to live in the same country as this person. this was the article:

http://www.villagevoice.com/2010-09-29/news/white-america-has-lost-its-mind/