Finals

my giant rant if you choose to read it. sorry about the caps but i like to rant in all caps because well i like caps.

IS IT OVER YET CAUSE REALLY. I AM SO DONE WITH THIS. ALL THESE TEST AND FINALS AND CRAP THAT I DON’T GIVE A CRAP ABOUT BECAUSE WHO DOES. I DON’T WANT TO GO TO FRANCE, I DON’T WANT TO WRITE AN ESSAY,  I DON’T WANT TO KNOW ABOUT THE CIVIL WAR, I DON’T WANT TO KNOW HOW TO DO PRE-CALC, AND I DEFINITELY DON’T WANT TO KNOW ABOUT DISEASES AND HOW THEY ATTACK ME AND MAKE ME FEEL LIKE CRAP. I DON’T WANT TO KNOW ANY OF THESE THINGS AND I DON’T MY LIFE TO EVER INCLUDE ANY OF THESE THINGS SO WHY MUST MY LIFE DEPEND ON KNOWING THEM. OBVIOUSLY I KNOW MY LIFE DOESN’T REALLY DEPEND ON IT BUT IT SURE MAKES A DIFFERENCE. THESE ARE ALL BIG TESTS AND PROJECTS AND SO THEY GREATLY AFFECT MY GRADE WHICH GREATLY AFFECTS WHAT COLLEGES I CAN GET INTO WHICH GREATLY AFFECTS WHAT CAREERS I CAN CHOOSE WHICH GREATLY AFFECTS HOW MUCH I LIKE MY JOB AND HOW HAPPY I AM IN MY LIFE AND I WANT TO BE HAPPY AND SUCCESSFUL CAUSE WHO DOESN’T. SO THEREFORE THESE THINGS DETERMINE MY LIFE AND I DETEST THEM FOR IT. DETEST. EVEN IF I PROMISE NEVER TO USE ANY OF THESE THINGS THEY DON’T CARE. IF I BEG AND PLEAD ON MY KNEES THEY DON’T CARE. THEY DON’T CARE IF I GET AND F AND THEY DON’T CARE IF I END UP BEING A DIRTY HOBO ON THE STREET WHO DIES OF STARVATION OR SUICIDE FROM DEPRESSION. THEY DON’T CARE BECAUSE “THEY” ARE THE GOVERNMENT. I DON’T KNOW WHO IT IS BUT WHOEVER CAME UP WITH THE WHOLE GRADE SYSTEM AND COLLEGE SYSTEM AND WHO MADE IT SO A BAD TEST OR PAPER CAN RUIN THE REST OF YOUR LIFE. THEY MIGHT NOT ADMIT THAT OR EVEN NOTICE IT BUT IT’S TRUE. SO HEAR I AM RANTING AND RAGING ON A COMPUTER WHILE I’M SUPPOSED TO BE STUDYING FOR TESTS AND FINALS AND ALL THE CRAP I HAVE TO DO TOMORROW AND SO I’M STARTING TO FREAK OUT BECAUSE I’M NOT GETTING ANYTHING DONE. I HATE SCHOOL. I HATE IT. IF THIS WASN’T ALL IN CAPS I HATE SCHOOL WOULD BE. IF IT WASN’T FOR THE GRADES I WOULD LOVE IT. I GUESS THAT’S WHAT IT’S LIKE FOR THE PEOPLE WHO DON’T CARE. THEY CAN JUST HANG OUT WITH FRIENDS, BS THEIR CLASSES, AND NEVER WORRY ABOUT DOING HOMEWORK OR DOING WELL ON TESTS. LIFE WOULD BE A FREAKING BREEZE. UNTIL OF COURSE THEY REALIZE THAT THEY’RE GOING TO HAVE TO WORK AT A GAS STATION OR BEG ON THE STREETS BECAUSE THEY’RE LAZY ASS LOW LIFES. I REALLY SHOULD GET BACK TO STUDYING BECAUSE NO MATTER WHAT I SAY I DO CARE ABOUT HOW I DO AND I WOULD LIKE TO GET INTO COLLEGES AND HAVE JOBS AND A HOUSE OR AT LEAST THE CHOICE TO. IT SUCKS THAT I CARE AND IT SUCKS THAT IT HAS TO BE THIS WAY BUT THAT’S THE WAY LIFE GOES SOMETIMES. MAYBE ON THE WEEKEND I’LL FEEL A LITTLE LIGHTER CAUSE I KNOW IT WILL GET LIGHTER SOMETIME BECAUSE THAT’S ALSO THE WAY LIFE GOES, WHICH IS WHY I STAND TO LIVE THROUGH THE BAD PARTS BECAUSE THE GOOD PARTS ARE SO GOOD THAT YOU WONDER WHY YOU WERE EVER SO UPSET ABOUT THE BAD PARTS. BECAUSE REALLY, IF YOU WANT IT TO BE, LIFE CAN BE AN AMAZING ADVENTURE THAT YOU HAVE TO TAKE ALL THE WAY THROUGH BEFORE YOU CAN COME BACK HOME. IT’LL BE UNBELIEVEABLY GREAT TO BE BACK HOME BUT YOU’LL BE GLAD YOU TOOK THE TRIP.

yep that was me going crazy but sometimes you just gotta rant.

Jenn